“Do two walk together, unless they have
agreed to do so?”
His name was Amos and his
blackness stood
against the sky like ash upon
a sheet.
I watched him as he wrestled
out the shapes
to carve a garden from the
cluttered beds.
His clothing never changed:
the patterned shirt,
stained overalls, the brown
boots cracked like skin.
His knobby hands, his bowed
knees, walking slow,
the silence of his pain when
bending down.
My mother sent me out to help
him work.
She warned me I should not
get in his way.
St. Louis, ’62, a fierce July.
The molten air sat hard on
everyone.
I wanted overalls like Amos
had.
My mother said “You’ll melt!”
and gave me shorts.
So every day I breathed him
as he worked,
the sweat that stained his
clothes and ringed his hat.
A sweat of okra, lard, and
greens and pork,
exotic to me as his phlegmy
laugh.
My child’s hands could
scarcely grasp the tools.
He shared his jar of water
even so.
Any icy jar he kept tucked in
the shade.
It sweated, too: slim
rivulets of tears.
There were so many things we
did not know:
The loss to come, my father
gone, the grief.
How we were tilling gardens
for the ones
Who’d take this house,
strangers, the waiting ghosts.
We did not know; and so we
simply worked.
Two diggers, side by side,
our fingers caked.
*
At sixty, I come in from cutting
wood,
a final try to save a dying
birch.
Tonight the rain will come;
the air is thick.
My knees betray the storm
across the lake.
I fill a mason jar and take a
drink.
A long, slow draw. And there
he is again.
A memory made fresh, a
phantom limb.
My nostrils filling with his
strong, sweet scent.